On the occasion of my 730th day of continuous Sobriety….upon reflections of…. this past year has taught me much. I have good news and bad news. The bad news is Life never turns out the way I expect it to. The good news is, Life never turns out the way I expect it to! Or that I “deserve.” For today I have Love, Grace, a Community and a place to lay my head.
Kabbalah has shown me many mirrors from which I beheld wisdom in myself and therefore, others, such as: A great sage once told a student to carry two notes in his pocket at all times. In his right pocket, there he should put a note that said, “I am everything!” while in the left pocket another note read, “I am nothing!” In moments when the student felt he was greater than others, he was to read the note in his left pocket, but when he felt depressed or badly about himself, he was to read the inspirational message to his right. It’s an important lesson on maintaining balance within our consciousness. One who is spiritually evolved knows they are never any greater or any less than the person standing next to them.
I had the pleasure of meeting and hearing Pastor Jay Bakker of the Revolution Church tonight! Among the highlights of his fellowship with us tonight: Jesus our Savior imparted the following words that I know to be truer for me today than ever….grace and grateful and Love at work. Thank You Jay!!!
“For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself. If you bite and devour each other, watch out or you will be destroyed by each other.” Galatians 5:14-15
“If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.”
I love this next stanza so much, it speaks to me on my entire life this year. Oh those ways I have put behind me and the mirrors I see in my rear-view and the ones ahead; and the love that is and was and will be. “When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.” 1 Corinthians 13
From the New Manner of Living I learned this: In real life there is going to be pain without any obvious cause, or misfortune even though we may have done nothing “wrong.” In meditation we can learn to deal with pain for what it is — just another feeling. It’s not the pain that’s the source of the problem — it’s our desire to get rid of the pain.
I need to understand and accept that the journey of spiritual progress will always be one of pain as well as pleasure. “The spiritual life is never one of achievement: it is always one of letting go.”
This year I gave up; I continue letting go; I walk on, surer, but still seeking… into the unknown. But I gained love and that is the point.
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