“If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.” Well, here I am…”THE BEGINNING IS NEAR” as they say.
I haven’t written anything in some time. I recognize a couple of reasons why for one…I am out living my new life, the one I have been seeking for so long, gathering the experiences that Sobriety through recovery has given me. Miracles, beauty, truth, tears of joy, of sadness and doubt,exquisite love, union with another; with mind, with spirit, with body. Yes, oh yes, with body. My Poet, My Captain and I are untied in ways that take many lifetimes to create. We are meeting, finally, together again, at last. Yes.
I find myself too happy, too at peace, outside the chaos of my usual Obsessions to
commit submit commit to writing. I feel like readers don’t want or won’t want to read about THAT. I don’t know if it’s true, just what I think is true.
And, to be honest, since I have fallen in love with My Poet, My Captain…and since he has read every one of the posts on this blog (in sequential order, I might add) thereby allowing him access to many of my deepest secrets, fetishes, and desires before I ever actually knew him (in this life anyway), I now find myself feeling less inclined to be brutally honest on here, when I do write. Time to move past that, shake loose the velvet kisses that lock away my written dreams.
So today, on the Eve of the End of the World: The Mayan Prophecy Edition, I decided to return here, to where it all began One Year Ago…to this blog.
Here’s what I know today. God has plans for me. All of them He has revealed to me up to this point surpass all my wildest dreams for the “better life” I thought I was going to find. They never look like what I thought they would but they are all perfectly realized and treasures, just the same. His will, not my own is the way of my path. As I live more days and months sober, I know more, I know better. And He reveals to me more truth, moves me forward into wholeness, whether I THINK I am ready or not. He expects me to not just see the way but follow it, follow his lead down the road. And the road, the path of God’s way is growing narrower. I don’t have the wide lanes to carry all the heartaches, resentments, fears and other bags I once carried.
The apocalypse is indeed upon me. The veil is lifting and I can see the road growing narrower yet also longer and straighter ahead of me. I am ready, He has the map, I am His passenger and I am at peace with that. See you on the Road of Happy Destiny. Thank you to all the 10os of readers who have stopped by The Johnnyspot. I hope you have been entertained and possibly enlightened. There is more to come, more to be revealed…together we lift that Veil to recognize the face of the Universe, the hand of God.