I’ll just start with this. My Sponsor has me working on Desire (big “D”). Did you know that the verb “to want” means both to DESIRE something and to LACK something? “I want one of these…” and “I want of nothing in my life, except….”
I’m doing a repeated exercise where I focus on the feelings I have when I Desire. Instead of the object of Desire, I concentrate on the feeling it gives me, recognizing God in the moment(s) and acknowledging that I am seeking from the outside a feeling, that I already possess. Without Within. Want one, want to.
I want to… to live in the freedom of wanting of nothing and especially, no one. If you read this blog, you know I have trouble with this. Daily. I surrendered recently. Again. I know now “I” have no power in this fight. “I” do NOT “Got this.” GOD does.
I use the phrase “No worries” entirely too much. It’s an outright lie when it spills from my lips. Taste the rainbow as it twirls on my tongue. I know I want to. And I want one, too.