I thank God now for what already is, even though I do not see it in my arms. It already is.
And I am grateful. I am no longer taking the same actions and wondering why I get the same results.
I no longer simply hope or wish or plead and then end up in fucking misery and self pity and bullshit so deep I can’t step outside my room.
Change. Different. Me. Now.
Thank You. Wonder.
Sitting at my desk staring at a screen, watching what I wanted happen in front of me.
On my tumblr page on my Pinterest page, on my Facebook wall.
Thank you for helping me through a time when I wasn’t ready,
not really ready, to surrender and let go.
I appreciate and am grateful for all my followers on every platform and site I participate in.
But it’s not enough. Not anymore.
Fall. Falling. Falling upward now.
Into, not away from.
Think I’m naive or stupid or silly or scary or damaged? Honey, that’s none of my business.
So, I simply…with great difficulty and yet sublime ease, change.
The Universal laws, truths and beliefs that I have dismissed my whole life because they were foreign to me, that I was afraid of?
Well, lol, that’s the fucking point of it all isn’t it. It’s necessary. It’s Oxygen. It’s water. It’s blood.
Thank You. Love. Wonder.
(to be continued)