Fuck! I hate feeling. Which is ironic as that sentence is an oxymoron or a paradox as hate is a feeling. It’s why I drank like I did; why I used. To turn off the feeling. Now, the feelings remain. I feel my fucked feelings wash over me like a giant wave, crashing down onto a beach. Fuck. Fuck me? No, Fuck you! Good word that: FUCK. Wiki say this:
“Fuck” is an English word that is considered vulgar. In its most literal meaning, it refers to the act of sexual intercourse. By extension it may be used to negatively characterize anything that can be dismissed, disdained, defiled, or destroyed and may also be used as an intensive.
“Fuck” can often be used as a verb, adverb, adjective, imperative, interjection, and noun. As a noun, “a fuck” or “a fucker” may describe a contemptible person. “A fuck” may mean an act of copulation.The verb to fuck may be used transitively or intransitively, and it appears in compounds, including fuck off, fuck you, fuck up, and fuck with. In less explicit usages (but still regarded as vulgar), fuck or fuck with can mean to mess around, or to deal with unfairly or harshly.
Though fuck can serve as a noun, the fucker form is used in a context that refers to an individual. Normally in these cases, if fuck is used instead of fucker, the sentence refers to the sexual ability of the subject (for example, “He’s a great fuck!”), although confusingly in a minority of occasions the word “fuck” can hold exactly the same meaning as “fucker” (e.g., when preceded by an adjective: “You’re a pretty clever fuck.”)
The Catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger featured the use of fuck you in print. First published in the United States in 1951, the novel remains controversial to this day due to its use of the word… The book offers a blunt portrayal of the main character’s reaction to the existence of the word, and all that it means.
Holden Caulfield: great fucking literary character but I don’t want him representing me or maybe I fucking do. Fuck! What is the fucking deal with all this fuckery? I’m fuckin’ done. I’m praying for clarity and not vengeance today so I am a changed man already. Progress. Somedays it’s all I have.